Back in this drab place.
Malaise saps mind’s life away.
Like a dull cramp’s ache.

—–Original Message—–
From: Samuel Proof
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 8:55 AM
To: Richard Sando
Subject: RE: Wednesday

I’m inside the heart
flowing computer through me
man becomes machine

—–Original Message—–
From: Richard Sando
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 8:59 AM
To: Samuel Proof
Subject: RE: Wednesday

Mind melds with machine’s
steady hum of whirring parts.
too many restarts.

—–Original Message—–
From: Samuel Proof
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 9:01 AM
To: Richard Sando
Subject: RE: Wednesday

walls not trees nor skies
cube within a cube within
small parts repeated

—–Original Message—–
From: Richard Sando
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 9:04 AM
To: Samuel Proof
Subject: RE: Wednesday

New barriers are not
seen, heard but felt silently.
Are they closing in?

—–Original Message—–
From: Samuel Proof
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 9:08 AM
To: Richard Sando
Subject: RE: Wednesday

egregiously
egoless situation
save me from this self

—–Original Message—–
From: Richard Sando
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 9:38 AM
To: Samuel Proof
Subject: RE: Wednesday

Calls and no answers.
Abrasive swirling voices raise.
Fury ebbs and swells.

—–Original Message—–
From: Samuel Proof
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 9:48 AM
To: Richard Sando
Subject: RE: Wednesday

inside the heart, I
buried alive, walls not trees
as if it were night

—–Original Message—–
From: Richard Sando
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 10:02 AM
To: Samuel Proof
Subject: RE: Wednesday

Spirit sucking screen.
Life sapping fluorescent lights.
Smiles make my face ache.

—–Original Message—–
From: Samuel Proof
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 10:05 AM
To: Richard Sando
Subject: RE: Wednesday

liberation is
lies and promises we tell
ourselves every day

—–Original Message—–
From: Richard Sando
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 10:16 AM
To: Samuel Proof
Subject: RE: Wednesday

If I wasn’t here
would anyone notice that?
Skepticism creeps.

—–Original Message—–
From: Samuel Proof
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 10:19 AM
To: Richard Sando
Subject: RE: Wednesday

Forrest Gump, the dolt
Champion of the simple
and I get nothing

—–Original Message—–
From: Richard Sando
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 10:43 AM
To: Samuel Proof
Subject: RE: Wednesday

Run Forrest run fast.
Awards for false happiness.
Superficiality.

—–Original Message—–
From: Samuel Proof
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 10:46 AM
To: Richard Sando
Subject: RE: Wednesday

and here it all is
I am Jack’s forgotten pride
lay me down I’ve died

—–Original Message—–
From: Richard Sando
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 11:29 AM
To: Samuel Proof
Subject: RE: Wednesday

Everyone has one.
Where is my one thing? One strength.
Why must I still search?

—–Original Message—–
From: Samuel Proof
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 11:31 AM
To: Richard Sando
Subject: RE: Wednesday

been a long time down
crooked road I thought made sense
so what’s driving me?

—–Original Message—–
From: Richard Sando
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 11:33 AM
To: Samuel Proof
Subject: RE: Wednesday

Toe the line, languid feet.
Reach to achieve the standards
that are not my own.

—–Original Message—–
From: Samuel Proof
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 11:44 AM
To: Richard Sando
Subject: RE: Wednesday

there it is ahead
carrot on a string for me
sadly, I hate carrots

—–Original Message—–
From: Richard Sando
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 11:46 AM
To: Samuel Proof
Subject: RE: Wednesday

Carrot on a string.
One step ahead, then one
more. One more step, then…

—–Original Message—–
From: Samuel Proof
Sent: Wednesday, November 03, 1999 11:50 AM
To: Richard Sando
Subject: RE: Wednesday

blank stares, soul and head
stick a fork in me I’m done
days end, then only sleep
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